He laid it out in front of God.
I sat in the raw that day.
A phone call of unrehearsed, unprepared and unspoken real.
Where your mind searches for answers and you know there are no answers to give.
You listen and you sit in their now.
You listen and feel every turn of the stomach.
You listen and feel every streak of the tear.
"Give me the words God, give me the words." played on repeat in my mind.
His voice was clear, "You know the story to tell."
"No God. I don't like that story."
"Tell it. There's a reason it was your phone that rang."
"But God...."
"There is a reason those chapters in your story happened. I make beauty from ashes, remember? While you can't see the colorful beauty in it, I can. Offer your ashes."
We often don't the 'why' of what we face.
We do know that God works all things to good if we love Him.
You may be in the thick of the muck and the mire.
You may be barely keeping your head above the quicksand sucking you down.
Or maybe your story has more miles in the rear-view mirror than you ever want to talk about.
Because you'd rather not talk about it thankyouverymuch.
Your chapter - your story - your ashes, hold beauty.
Even if the story is still being written, there is buried beauty that will emerge.
Offer your ashes.
Even if you can't see how a pile of ashes can be anything but dusty, offer your ashes.
You aren't the artist.
God is.
See what beauty rises.
For He makes all things beautiful.
He makes all things new.
Ever have one of those mornings in which nothing goes right?
Today was one of those mornings.
While brushing my teeth, I tripped - on what I have no idea - and my knee smacked the open vanity door causing it to hit the bathroom door jamb. The glass nob of the vanity door broke.
I sigh. I pick it up.
I slice my finger open.
It's been 2 minutes. I've been up for 2 minutes.
The rest of the morning wasn't too much better.
By the time I sat down to have my breakfast I felt the day already won and I hadn't even left the house yet. I open my Bible; John 17 is the passage I'm to read today.
Jesus is praying. He prays for Himself as He knows the crucifixion is coming, He prays for the disciples in front of Him, and He prays for all believers.
As He faced His imminent death, Jesus prayed for us...He prayed for me.
After praying this prayer in John 17, Jesus leaves for the Garden of Gethsemane where He would begin to make right what happened in the Garden of Eden.
Contemplating this wonder, I look up and see the gardens outside my window.
Jesus and the story of 2 gardens. One perfect in beauty marred now by sin and death; the other watered by the dusty tears of the One who's death would soon bring beauty.
I begin to think of my own garden. The one no one can see except Jesus. When was the last time I even weeded? I sure felt the pruning.
Friends, maybe right now your garden is lush with the life of summer.
He prayed for you.
Maybe your garden is nothing more than the leafless, barren sticks protruding from the frozen soil of winter.
He prayed for you.
He prayed knowing the winter garden becomes spring's hope and knowing the lush garden of summer would soon give to the harshness of winter.
No matter what your garden looks like, He knows the season you're in.
And He prayed for you.
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John 17: 13 - 16 But now I am coming to You; and these things I speak in the world so that they may have My joy made full in themselves. I have given them Your word; and the world has hated them because they are not of the world, just as I am not of the world. I am not asking You to take them out of the world, but to keep them away from the evil one. They are not of the world, just as I am not of the world.
Sun was streaming through my window. I lace up my boots and head outdoors. I don't remember the last time we had blue sky without the bitter north-east winds.
The sun feels good on my face.
I decide to take a walk.
Snow still blankets the yards. The sun causes melting snow to drip off roofs. I hear birds chirp.
We are all ready for spring. Winter has been brutal.
Walking past a field, I notice a tree in it's midst.
I am struck by it's stark grandeur as it stands alone.
It's branches barren with snow at it's roots.
God tapped me on the shoulder and said, "The tree looks dead, doesn't it? It is not. The tree is very much alive. If you could only see the life it holds inside then you would know spring's leaves are always there. Fruit comes in it's own season. And so will yours."
Be encouraged my friends. Be encouraged.